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That title was verbatim my first FB post in a couple of weeks.
It's true. It's getting smaller in many ways and that's okay.
Tonight I sat outside for a couple of hours, by the Carnaval Tree and worked. Had so much fun getting down and dirty in it...(Ponzi, not the yard or anything--it was dark, but the strands of lights were on!) )But the yard looks nice from yesterday's labors.)
Benjamin, though 11, acted like a puppy, chewing a stick, lying in the cool mud/leaves/grass, digging in the mud, smiling. He'd come up for a nuzzle every now and then.
Fernando popped in and out of our night. Earlier, he had curled up in my lap and purred louder than a vibrating bed at Holiday Inn.
Sr and Betty are coming in tomorrow. Steven's workshop is this weekend. I helped with dramaturgy on it. It'll be more stunning weather. My headcold is over. Everything in blooming. The yard looks nice. (Tweak the house tomorrow am.)
My health is good. I'm not ever going to need a transplant--I've decided that. Diet, etc. is doing the job. I've eaten red cabbage and napa cabbage and carrots and such, a million different ways for over a week. And it was good each time! (Soup, steamed, stir-fry with white wine, stir-fry with balsamic vinegar, stir-fry with cheese, etc.) The first round there was a portabella cap. There were onions. I have used everything up; ready for a weekend of regular food. But hey, it's good to love the taste of things that kill cancer and are so good for me!
I have an abundance of things. Many to get rid of. Yesterday that was an annoyance; today, it's a luxury.
My car is exactly 12 years old, this week. It's running fabulously. (knock on wood) It will go over 75,000 miles when I head up to Sherman in a couple of weeks for my grandmother's 80th bday. So, mileage-wise, I'd say I'm doing okay--what is that? About 500 miles per month?
I live where I can bike a lot of places--and walk to others. Need to run to the store? Hey, it's one block away. Ditto, the convenience store and the bakery and the cheese shop and the gelato shop/jazz bar, and all those restaurants. I live close to a Central Market, where when I weigh the organic red cabbage and it comes out to more than $4, I can ask the guy to cut it in half--and then have a great thing to eat off for a week for about $2.
My family is nearby. Friends who are family. Good friends. Theatre people who are friends. School folks. Thirty years worth of acquaintances. People smile at me. I guess I haven't pissed everybody off yet.
My parents are healthy and not that far away. They have a wonderful cabin, which they share so much with me. I can get lost in Woodlake, a quiet, private lake--any time I can get up there.
I live in a liberal city. A place where people care about things that matter. A place that's pretty much live-and-let-live. It's increasingly and increasingly an oasis in a weirder than shit state, but hey, I still wear my boots and have a few Texas things around. (What am I 5th generation? Maybe 6th? I don't know.)
I could go on and on, but I've droned on too long. I'm not being smug. Everytime, I've felt smug about something--or rather, more like, how lucky I am, something bad happened soon thereafter. There's always a downside. And if I cross over into that certain layer of feeling special, God has a way of cutting me down to...hey, you're blessed, but you've got to suffer a bit, like everyone else.
Thus, I realize I have a lot of problems. I realize there are a lot of things I could improve. I realize there are plenty of negatives in my life. It has contracted and contracted again. There are many things I've cut. There will be more. That's okay.
But tonight, the stars are beautiful. The air is crisp and full of spring. Perfumey air from blooms here and there. Folks outside everywhere. The energy of SXSW descending upon the city--half the country it seems sometimes. It's all good. Tonight it's all okay.
Thanks for being a part of my life!
Cheers!
Love,
,m